Deployment thoughts

Counting my blessings

This post is about my favorite time of year.  Thanksgiving.  Not only is Thanksgiving one of my favorite holidays, it always lands right near my wedding anniversary so it’s a double whammy of happiness.

With that, I thought I would type up a little list of things I am most thankful for this year to share with you all.

Coming up on the 4th anniversary of this blog, I am truly thankful for all of my readers.  I have met some amazing people through my blog, and this makes my heart so very happy. Thank you so much to you all!!!

I am thankful for the health and wellness of my family.  If you recall last March, my daughter was in a pretty bad accident.  You can read about it here.  She is now 100% back to her normal snarky teenager self, and I wouldn’t change a single moment because her snarkyness means she’s healthy and happy, LOL.

I am thankful for my own determination and perseverance.  I have finally started to REALLY catalog my recipes, and although my dreams of a cookbook may be far off still, I am at least moving forward with this goal.  You can see the most current list of my recipes here.

I am thankful for the strong family bond I have with my immediate family.  Upon hearing the news of my husband’s deployment this coming spring, I have been supported more than I even imagined possible and this makes the sting of his leaving a little easier to bear.

I am thankful for my amazing co-workers, friends, and neighbors who have been there for me through thick and thin this past year, and remind me daily that I am not in this alone.

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And I am most thankful for my husband who continues to selflessly serve his country, all while taking extra steps to remind both me and my daughters how much he loves us and appreciates all that we do to serve our country as well.  He truly is a hero, the love of my life, and just a really amazing man.  I swear I don’t tell him enough, but he’s my rock.

How are you celebrating Thanksgiving? What is your favorite part of this holiday season?

Happy Thanksgiving, y’all!!!

❤ Michelle

 

Recipes, Uncategorized

Chicken Sausage over “spaghetti”

It’s no shocker that I’ve been a bit MIA.  I just haven’t felt like doing a whole lot to be honest.  Sometimes work, life, etc. just overtakes us and we forget to make time for things we love.

So tonight I decided to dust off my apron and make a healthy meal for my family for dinner.

Chicken Sausage over “spaghetti”

Ingredients:

1 spaghetti squash, halved and seeded

4 links of chicken sausage, sliced at a diagonal.

1 shallot-finely diced

2 cloves of garlic-minced

6-8 shitake mushrooms, sliced

2 heads of baby bok Choy that have been cleaned and sliced-add these in the last 10 minutes

1/4 cup of frozen peas-add these in the last 10 minutes

Extra virgin olive oil, kosher salt, pepper, red pepper flakes, garlic powder, oregano and parmesan cheese to finish.

Preheat your oven to 350 degrees and place the squash open face down and roast for 20 minutes.  Turn it over after 20 minutes and drizzle with extra virgin olive oil and season with salt, pepper, garlic powder and oregano and put back in the oven for another 30 minutes.

While the squash is roasting, add extra virgin olive oil (just a drizzle) to a non-stick pan.  Heat to medium-high heat and sauté the mushrooms, shallots, garlic and red pepper flakes until golden brown.  WAIT to season until you get the golden brown color.  Next add your chicken sausage and let brown.  Season with kosher salt and black pepper.  Cook for about 15 minutes or until golden brown, and in the last 10 minutes add the bok Choy and peas.  Taste for seasoning, and add salt and pepper as needed.

After the squash is done roasting, remove from the oven and let cool just slightly.  Scoop out with a fork  into a pasta dish, and top with the chicken sausage mixture. Finish off with parmesan cheese, and enjoy!

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Do you have a favorite low carb meal?  Does your family give you the side-eye when you try new and healthy recipes?

Thanks for the amazing support lately, I can’t thank you all enough!  ❤

Michelle

Deployment thoughts

Reasons to smile

Last week was difficult to get through, to say the least.  I think the week compounded by some crazy work drama that I was NOT expecting.  You know the old saying, “When it rains, it pours!” right?  Well, someone forgot her umbrella last week so I was drenched by the end of the week.

photo cred: tumblrgifs.com
photo cred: tumblrgifs.com

I was completely over myself, so Friday night we had “family movie night” and watched “Raiders of the Lost Arc.”  I then proceeded to have an extra couple glasses of wine, LOL, which led to an uninterrupted night’s sleep.  Something I haven’t had in weeks.  I woke up with a purpose, and that was to SMILE as much as possible over the weekend.

Here are my reasons to smile over the weekend, via photos.

lunch with my daughters
lunch with my daughters
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We found a new dress for our Chicago staycation weekend next month. We’re going to see “The Lion King” and S wanted a new dress! 12 bucks at Once Upon a Child! Score!
Because wearing deodorant for the first time warrants a pic, at least according to her, LOL!!
Because wearing deodorant for the first time warrants a pic, at least according to her, LOL!!
Back at it with my planking after a few days off.
Back at it with my planking after a few days off.

And this:

My heart is full, indeed.
My heart is full, indeed.
My new wrap bracelet, and daily reminder.
My new wrap bracelet, and daily reminder.

Thanks to my friend Teri for getting me up and out the door on Sunday morning.  We ran at a nice easy pace and both got a lot off our chest.  Having felt pretty alone the last few weeks this is JUST what I needed.  6 miles later, and we were both smiling.

How was your weekend?  What do you do to make yourself smile during tough times?

Have a great week, y’all!

Michelle

Deployment thoughts

Tuesday truths

I haven’t worked out very much in the last few weeks since getting the news of my husband’s deployment.  (FYI-I’ll be discussing a lot about what I am going through with my husband getting deployed – to include the next few months of preparation and the year long deployment. Please bear with me as this is a much needed outlet.)  Between lack of sunlight and lack of physical/mental strength I’ve just sort of been going through the motions of work, and home life.  I’ve managed a couple runs each week, and planking 4-5 times each week, but that’s about it.

I do however, cry. Kind of a lot. I sure try not to do it in front of my husband or kids, but sometimes I just can’t seem to wrap my brain around another year of worry for my husband’s safety.  This man is the rock I lean on, for everything.  And maybe I didn’t realize it truly until receiving this news, but it’s become very apparent that I need him as much as I want him in my life, and that maybe I am not as strong as I thought.  And with tomorrow being Veteran’s day and all the shows and commercials on T.V. I’ve found that lately it’s just all a bit too much.  So then I cry some more…Gah.  Stick a fork in me already! :/

I’m going to attempt to run on the treadmill this week and my friend Teri invited me to run with her this weekend.  I really need to let myself have ‘my things’ too, because in the last few weeks of doing everything for everyone else but me have left me very…tired.

Today my sister reminded me that it’s ok to feel this way, but to not waste the next few months I DO have with him being sad.  I suppose it’s just hard because even though he’s still “here” he really isn’t because he’s knees deep in preparation for the deployment, working longer days than I can even fathom. He truly is my hero.

This afternoon my husband texted me thanking me for all of the love and support and that he understood how hard this was on me.  And sometimes just hearing that helps lighten the load, even if just a little.

I truly appreciate everyone’s amazing support through all of this craziness.  It really has helped knowing I am not going to do this alone!!!!

Michelle

Recipes

Stuffed and roasted Acorn squash

Today was a busy day for us, but we managed to get to the DMV before the line went down the block, most of the housecleaning done, and our shopping at Aldi done for the next couple weeks.  They had beautiful acorn squash, so I just had to buy a couple to stuff and roast!

Ingredients/Recipe:

2 acorn squash-halved and seeds removed-Drizzle with extra virgin olive oil, season with kosher salt and pepper and roast in a 350 degree oven for about 20 minutes.

Next get the stuffing ready.

In a sauce pot boil water and prepare your quinoa according to the package instructions.  Mine called for 2 cups of boiling water, and cook the quinoa for 15 minutes. I cooked it al dente as its going to cook a bit more in the oven.

2 cloves of garlic, minced

1 small white onion, diced

4 baby portabella mushrooms, diced

1/2 of a green apple, peeled and diced-add LAST, just before removing from the heat

2 links of chicken sausage, cubed

2 pieces of bacon, cubed

While your quinoa is cooking, sauté the above ingredients for 20 minutes. Start first with the bacon and chicken sausage, then add the garlic, onions and mushrooms.  Add the apples just for the last 2-3 minutes.  Season with kosher salt, pepper, sage, and parsley (about 2 teaspoons each of sage and parsley).  Add in the quinoa when cooked and add to the stuffing mixture and remove from the heat.

Remove the roasted squash from the oven, and spoon in your stuffing.  Top with grated parmesan cheese, and put back in the oven for another 20 minutes at 375 or until the squash is slightly tender.

Delish!!!
Delish!!!

Dinner is served!  Enjoy!!!

Do you like squash? What’s your favorite way to prepare it?

I hope you are all having a great weekend!

❤ Michelle

running

My place of peace

Thanks to everyone for your amazing love and support during this tough time. I’ve truly turned a new leaf and although am still overcome with sadness, I finally feel like I can maybe. Just maybe…get through this next year and a half. Although my husband hasn’t left yet, his spare time is spent preparing, and sadly worrying. We’ve both had our fair share of sleepless nights. So last night I revisited one of my favorite trails where I run, and it was there I found a little peace. 

  
And as I rounded this corner at mile 2 of my 4 mile run, I forgot for a moment that I was running. I forgot all my worries. And I was smiling from ear to ear. 

  
The sun was setting, I was chasing daylight, and I was smiling. It’s days like these I realize I must hang on tight to during the next year and a half. 

Where’s your place of peace? How do you find the good in a bad situation?

Have a great night!!

~Michelle

moving forward

Assumptions

I think it’s only human for us to have assumptions in certain situations when it comes to what is thought to be “the norm” in life, no?  We assume that if there is something big in our lives, or something that we put our heart and souls in to, that those we consider closest to in life, will support those big things…at least I do…or did…

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But assuming is a naughty naughty word, and it truly does end up slapping you in the face from time to time.  And for a split second I caught myself being sad about the person(s) that don’t support my crazy #keepmovinforward mantra, page, and blog.  I looked into my husband’s eyes with sadness, and he reminded me that HE will forever be my best friend, MY PERSON…and suddenly the sadness vanished. I’ve accepted that sometimes friendships run their course, and that is ok.  It’s all the circle of life, right?

Since learning of my hubby’s upcoming deployment I have been flooded with phone calls, texts, comments and emails from friends and family. And despite crying more than I’d care to admit, I am also counting my blessings.  Because you don’t get through the hard stuff without your friends and family.

Here's a pic my friend Andrea made after I spectated and ran the last few miles of her first marathon with her.  One of my all time favorite running memories.
Here’s a pic my friend Andrea made after I spectated and ran the last few miles of her first marathon with her. One of my all time favorite running memories.

With that, I thank you all for being just plain awesome.  I love the fact that I’ve met so many amazing people through this community, and that you have chosen to join me on this journey.  My hat goes off to you all!

Moving forward, I will continue to rant about running, recipes, and real life adventures.  Let’s see where the upcoming year takes us!

Cheers!

❤ Michelle

Recipes

Slumps and Spicy Salmon…keepin’ it real!

I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t in a bit of a slump.  With the news of my husband’s upcoming deployment, I honestly don’t feel like doing anything other than sleep even though  trying to get more than an hour of sleep at a time seems impossible. I don’t want to run, I don’t want to cook, I don’t want to do much of anything…I think my husband sensed my blues setting in, so he took me on a date on Friday. We only do date nights a few times a year, so this was just what I needed.

I actually felt pretty, which doesn't happen too often anymore!!
I actually felt pretty, which doesn’t happen too often anymore!!

We had a great date, first by going out to a nice dinner, and finishing the night off with seeing the movie, “Burnt.”  As a wanna-be Chef, this movie was all that and a bag of chips in my book, and it really portrayed what being a “real” Chef entails.  I highly recommend it to any food lovers!

Today, staying with the theme of trying to quit feeling sorry for myself, I got up early enough to watch the New York City Marathon.  A good friend of mine is running it, and I am always in awe of the enormity of this race. Watching the elites almost inspired me enough to go for a run, but my naggy Achilles and I decided to call it and clean the house instead.  Because of course, I haven’t felt like cleaning either.  I took out some salmon for dinner, and decided to change things up from my typical recipe of baking it with herbs and butter (recipe can be found HERE) and giving the salmon a little kick.

Spicy Salmon

Ingredients

Preheat oven to 375 degrees

1 fillet of salmon cut into 4 servings patted dry, seasoned with kosher salt and freshly ground black pepper

1 teaspoon of Dijon mustard lightly spread on each fillet

Lightly sprinkle 1-2 teaspoons (total for all 4 fillets) of cayenne pepper over all 4 fillets, season to taste

Light sprinkle 1-2 teaspoons of brown sugar over all 4 fillets

2 chives, finely chopped for garnish

Bake at 375 degrees for 30 minutes or until the salmon flakes with a fork.  Garnish with chives, and serve with your favorite side dishes.

I served mine with roasted sweet potatoes, quinoa w/portabella mushrooms, sweet potatoes, garlic and onions.
I served mine with roasted sweet potatoes, quinoa w/portabella mushrooms, sweet potatoes, garlic and onions.

What’s your go-to activity to get out of a slump?  Do you like salmon?  Did you watch the New York City marathon today?

Have a great week, y’all!

❤ Michelle

Recipes

Roasted pumpkin seeds

In efforts to keep my spirits up I decided to create a yummy and healthy snack with our leftover pumpkin seeds. 

  
Preheat the oven to 300 degrees and line a baking sheet with foil, then spray with non-stick spray. This recipe is for about 2 cups of seeds that have been rinsed and dried for 24 hours. 

Place the seeds in a large bowl and add either 2 tsp of unsalted butter or extra virgin olive oil. Mix well. Next add 2 tsp of kosher salt. I added cayenne pepper, paprika and a touch of cumin. Mix well and pour into the sheet pan evenly. Roast for 45 minutes, stirring about half way through to ensure the seeds are toasted evenly. 

Enjoy!

  
Do you roast your leftover seeds?  What’s your favorite fall snack?

Thanks so much for all the love and support. Y’all rock!!

Michelle 

Uncategorized

Goodbyes

In the blink of an eye reality can change.  Often times this change can be a wonderful surprise, but that isn’t the case for me this time…

Thursday I got the call from my husband that no military spouse ever wants to receive.  That “This isn’t a text conversation please call me” call that is heart shattering.  “Where are you going, and how long will you be gone this time?” I asked, thinking it was just another work trip.  “Call me” was his answer and with a shaking hand I lifted the receiver off my work phone.

My husband delivered the news that he is getting deployed overseas for 12 months.  There.  I said it.  I’ve told close friends and family, but I’ve kept to myself the last several days while trying to digest the idea of him being in harms way for another year.  See, when I met him 12 years ago, it was just a few short months prior to his deployment to Afghanistan.  We met late summer of ’03 and he deployed in October.  I have loved this man from the very moment I laid eyes on him, so there was no question if I’d wait for him or not.  I waited. For 10 1/2 months I waited by the phone as this was long before times where Skyping and instant messaging happened.  I waited for that call, that MIGHT come every few weeks, and I checked my mail box Every. Damn. Day. in hopes that I’d find a letter.  I didn’t watch the news in fear of what I’d see, yet found myself so very compelled to turn the channel back to CNN for just a peak.  I didn’t sleep in fears of missing a phone call, and I worried more than I ever have about anyone or anything in my lifetime other than my daughters.

It was the hardest, most heart wrenching thing I have ever done.

And now.  I have to do it again.

And I question if I can do it.  I know I must, as the country needs my husband.  He has been called to do what he does best, and that is lead his troops.  But the whiney side of me wants to bawl my eyes out and say “I need you too, your daughters need you too…”  Yet I can’t…I have my own duty as retired Air Force MSgt, and a military spouse to perform.

HE needs to know I am strong, and that I can take care of things here so he doesn’t have to worry.  His worries are far bigger than whether or not I can get the kids to the bus in time before I go to work. He doesn’t need to be bothered with house repairs or paying bills.  No.  His calling is far greater than any of these issues.

So here in the next few months I may lose a little of my sparkle.  The light in my eyes will be slightly dimmed, as this man I must say goodbye to is the reason why I shine. He sees something in me that many don’t, and despite our problems he continues to not give up on me.

Please pardon my slight absence as of late.  I am just so. very. sad. For me, for my daughters, and for the year of memories my husband will miss out on. Yet this too, in time, shall pass.

I ask that you keep my husband and his unit in your prayers over the next year and a half.  Keep their safety, well being, and morale lifted up in your daily prayers.

Many thanks and blessings,

❤ Michelle