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Sometimes everything hurts

There are some days, when I can honestly say everything hurts.  The ache in my heart seems to permeate throughout the rest of my body, and I just don’t have much left.  That’s my last week in a nut shell.  And it sucked.

So here are a few things that made me smile over the weekend.

Pictured is the watch I spoke about in my previous post.  It was an anniversary gift for my husband, and he truly loves it. My daughters have truly rallied around me (the 16 year old has her moments of course) and keep me smiling.   This weekend was my friend Carolyn’s 40th birthday, and although I couldn’t make it to the city with the girls, I was able to meet for her surprise birthday dinner.  YAY! I miss these ladies dearly, but the stressors in my life have taken front seat unfortunately.  I also made a yummy roast for dinner tonight, with a sweet potato mash topped with parmesan cheese and chives.  YUM. Oh and naps.  Yup.  I had my running clothes on today….but a nap seemed like a much better idea. See, sleep just doesn’t happen anymore so I take what I can get.  #dontjudge

Check out my dress.  I LOVE pretty clothes!  #giddy This is one of the dresses my hubby picked out during our anniversary weekend.


This week my husband will be traveling for a leadership meeting for his deployment.  It all got very real, very quick. Today he was called in for another emergency meeting, and it’s so very hard to digest the whole situation.  I can’t obviously go into it, but let’s just say S#@! just got real.

Tonight, while was cooking dinner I looked over and watched him. He was sitting in his rocking chair, drinking a glass of wine and reading his favorite magazine, Wine Spectator.  But he wasn’t reading.  He was staring at our Christmas tree.  I asked him, “Are you ok?” and he looked down and nodded.  I went to him, hugging him tightly, and he choked back sobs.  This big, strong man was crying.  And everything hurt, a little more.

But this too, in time, shall pass…We WILL get through this.  Thanks to you all for your amazing support and patience.  My blog has obviously taken a turn, but it helps to get it all out there even if just once a week or so.

How was your weekend?  Did you cook anything yummy? What makes you happy during tough times?

❤ Michelle

35 thoughts on “Sometimes everything hurts”

  1. Oh Michelle. I am bawling like a baby after reading your post. Sometimes the things in this world really suck and it’s very scary in so many ways. I’ve been praying for you, Brian, and your girls. My heart aches for you and I wish I could do something to help. Love you bunches!

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  2. My heart aches for you both, Michelle. And since we won’t see you next weekend, I think we need to meet up for a lunch or coffee sometime soon! With all the stress right now, a nap is just what you needed! The runs can happen later. ❤ Hugs!

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  3. I can’t imagine how hard this must be for you and your family. But you are strong and w get thru this. Just enjoy the time you have together now. Glad you got to to see your friend for her birthday. I’m sure that was fun surprise for her! Your dress is beautiful!

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  4. First things first: that dress is amazing!!! I know you are going through a tough time and the holidays certainly don’t make that easier. Hugs, prayers, and thoughts coming your way. ❤


  5. Hugs to you lady. I can’t imagine what you’re going through. I’m glad you found some awesome reasons to smile this past week. You look gorgeous in that dress!


  6. Oh my. I just got caught up on what’s going on and my heart is breaking for you! I know nothing I can say will make it better, but just know that I’m thinking about you and sending you hugs from Alaska!


  7. I’ve been thinking about you so much. I need your phone number so that I can check in on you more. After your comment on my blog Friday, I knew you would say what you needed when it was time, but I was still worried. Spend as much time with your family as you can, but know that you can always escape downtown.


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