moving forward

Motivation in many ways…

I didn’t sleep very well last night.  The never ending thoughts of, “Can I do it all” haunted me as I rushed around packing lunches, drying snow pants, and signing the infamous “daily folder” to avoid the nasty note from the teacher.  Oh, and did I wash S’s ballet uniform for Monday night?  Crap…her tights need to air dry.  Lemme throw that last minute load of clothes in at 10 p.m.  LOL

But we had a mostly successful Monday morning with only minor drama as I dropped off S at the neighbor’s house before taking J to school.  This  calls for a win in my book.  I also woke up to a loss of 1.4 lbs.  Double WIN for a Monday!

2-9WIN

But as I drove to work this morning sipping my yummy protein shake, (insert sarcasm here-pass me the bacon and eggs please and thanks) I thought about several things.  What motivates me, what inspires me, and what keeps ME movin’ forward.

The last few years have been pretty huge for me.  Between Marathons, my MasterChef tryout, and moving on to a new job this past year-I finally feel like I am finding my groove.  But that underlying voice saying “GO chase your dreams” is still very real.

repeat, sorry, but a darn proud moment! (MasterChef try out)
repeat, sorry, but a darn proud moment! (MasterChef try out)

See, I’ve always been an oddball.  A stand out…a person who never really fit in with any crowd.  I’ve always felt…well…different.  And that’s ok…truly.  I like who I am…who I’ve become.  But I’ve always felt I had a bigger purpose in life…

alone

So while driving home tonight, I decided to think, pray, and reflect on what motivates me to keep movin’ forward.  Here is the list I came up with, in no particular order:

1. To be a better Mom.  I’ve failed sucktastically at this more times than I can count.  But may my girls never have to feel an ounce of the sadness I did growing up. (To no fault of anyone-just life circumstances).

2. To be a better Wife.  See…there’s this dude, that I call B around here, whom I love dearly.  He’s made me a better ME.  I can only hope to do the same for him.

and lastly…

3. To be a better ME.  I have done more, pushed myself further, and tried harder to live life to the fullest in the last 3 years than I did in the last 42 years combined.  And isn’t this the example I want to give to my girls?

You’re darn right it is.

Truth!  Pic from Pinterest
Truth! Pic from Pinterest

I drove home tonight nearly in silence as I thought about ALL of this.  And I realized, no matter what, my voice matters and I need…to KEEP MOVIN’ FORWARD.

And in perfect time for this post, my J came downstairs to say goodnight, in tears.  Someone told her today she looked ugly, and immediately my Mama bear came out in full force.  I took a deep breath, reminded her of the importance of kindness and hugged her tightly.  Being a parent is so tough, yet rewarding…And THIS fuels my fire.  daily.

What motivates you?  Tell me!

❤ Michelle

 

 

food

Chef on the mend

Tonight is an exciting night for me…
Why, you ask?
First, I came home from work to find my house without heat, so what did I do?  I fired up the stove of course, and prepared a hearty seafood chowder!  This recipe isn’t exact, but here’s what you’ll need to make this amazing chowder in less than 45 minutes:
Seafood Chowder:
1 large pasta/stew pot
Drizzle of extra virgin olive oil
1 large white onion, diced
1 green pepper, diced
1 red pepper, diced
4 cloves of garlic, minced
1 potato, diced
1 cup of frozen corn, or fresh if it’s in season (add this the last 10 minutes if frozen to avoid overcooking)
Crushed red pepper flakes to taste
1 can of crushed tomatoes
1 can of diced tomatoes
1 can of black beans (may omit)
2 green onions sliced at an angle for garnish
2-3 cups of stock-low sodium!
Seasoning: Cajun spice, chili powder, cayenne pepper, cumin, smoked paprika, oregano, and kosher salt and pepper-to taste.
1 back 0f 20 count large shrimp, remove the tail, cut in 3 pieces and place in a separate bowel.  Add the juice of half of a lemon,  Cajun seasoning, salt, and pepper and let marinate.  (You will add the shrimp the final 10 minutes as they are precooked).
Drizzle your pot with EVOO and add all the veggies (minus the corn) and sauté for about 7 minutes until just slightly tender.  Add your tomatoes, stock, and beans and season to taste.  Let simmer for 30 minutes to allow the flavors to develop.
Let it simmer, at least 30 minutes and don't forget to taste before serving!
Let it simmer, at least 30 minutes and don’t forget to taste before serving!
In the last 10 minutes add your corn and shrimp to heat through entirely.
Garnish was sliced green onions, and serve!
I can't tell you how good it feels to be cooking again.  I've mastered cooking with a bandaged thumb!
I can’t tell you how good it feels to be cooking again. I’ve mastered cooking with a bandaged thumb!
Second, tonight marks the 3rd season of MasterChef junior season premier of course!  (MasterChef/MasterChef junior being literally the ONLY shows I have watched on television in the past year or so).
Wait…before you get all judgy with “reality TV is all scripted,” and stuff…Wait. 
Still waiting?  Thanks…this truly is important to me!!!
I agree, these shows do have the hint of irritating hidden advertisement and drama nestled inside each episode.  I won’t even try to say it’s truly “real” in regards to actual reality.  I mean, really…how many people would have access to a pantry like THAT to choose ingredients from?!?  I’d be in heaven…lol
photo from shineaustralia.com.au
photo from shineaustralia.com.au
BUT…having been on the other side of the show nearly, well not really nearly, I see this particular series in a different light. 😉
For behind even the most dramatic Chef down to the sweetest home junior cook. both share one common theme that is near and dear to me and that, is a PASSION FOR FOOD.  Good food, creative food…homecooked food with a touch of flare and big pinch of passion.
Although I won’t be America’s next MasterChef, I know how it feels to want something THAT bad.  To have dreams THAT big, achievable or not..
And THAT…is reality.
Oh, and the hubby saved the day by fixing the heat and I finished day 6 of my AB challenge!  SCORE!
Keep Movin’ Forward, y’all!  And don’t forget to smile!
❤ Michelle
Holidays, Uncategorized

Goodbye 2014

I read back to my goals for the year, as I am not one to make resolutions.  The beginning of 2014 was pretty tough on me…I found out I was losing my job, and we were buried deep in sub zero temperatures for MONTHS it seemed.  #Chiberia and I officially were NOT friends, and my miles and mood disintegrated at a very rapid rate.

BUT…spring came along, and I found a new job that I currently still am working at.  YAY.  I also PR’d my half marathon by a minute, at 2:01, trained for and ran my hubby’s first half marathon with him, as well as prepared for months for my Master Chef audition in Chicago.

Over all, it was a pretty good year.  My mileage isn’t where I had hoped, but I did lose 5 of the 10 lbs I set out to lose so I am pleased with that fact.  I also remained consistent with my blog, which was another big goal of mine.

Next year brings on new adventures of training for my 3rd full marathon, the Grandma’s Marathon that I will be running with my sister.  I swore I’d never run another full…but yeah.  We all know how that goes, right?

This past year I have been documenting my favorite recipes, and REALLY want my e-cook book to come to fruition this year…#fingerscrossed

For next year, I have a few personal goals that I want to keep up with that I’ll keep to myself for now, as well as over all I just want to keep movin’ forward.  I lived in the past for too many years.  I hope to continue to see my sister more often, as well as have ALL. THE. FUN. running another marathon with her on June 20th, 2015.

Lastly, I’ll share a couple of my favorite photos from last year!

Last year winter running buddy
Last year winter running buddy
Naperville Half, Nov'14
Naperville Half, Nov’14
MasterChef audition, meeting Kira!
MasterChef audition, meeting Kira!
Fox Valley Marathon sisters
Fox Valley Marathon sisters
FAMILY <3
FAMILY ❤
Hubby's first half <3
Hubby’s first half ❤

 

Cheers, and Happy New Year to you all!!

 

❤ Michelle

food, goals

Two things, Tuesday…Soup and dreams

Tonight’s dinner was a new recipe I came up with after several rough days at work. I wasn’t sure what I would make with the chicken thighs I pulled out of the freezer, but I knew it would comforting regardless.  And what’s more comforting than a yummy soup to warm the soul after chilly temps and a few harsh days at work.

ONE:

Chicken and gnocchi soup

Who doesn't love a good bowl of soup?
Who doesn’t love a good bowl of soup?

What you’ll need:

4 chicken thighs, cut into bite size pieces

4 cups of low sodium veggie stock

4 cups of water

1/4 cup heavy cream

2 teaspoons of Worcestershire  sauce

2 tablespoons of butter

2-3 tablespoons of garbanzo/fava flour (can be found in the gluten free section of your local market)

1 red pepper, diced

1 red onion, diced

2 celery stocks, diced

4 cloves of garlic, minced

Cayenne pepper, taco seasoning, cilantro, oregano, basil, parsley, salt and pepper to taste

1/4 cup of grated parmesan to garnish

I used store bought gnocchi, but plan on learning to make this from scratch

In a large sauce pot, add your butter, and flour and cook through stirring with a whisk.  Add in your veggie stock and water, stirring well.  Bring the liquid to a rolling boil, and add your heavy cream.  Season with salt, pepper, cayenne and Worcestershire sauce. Reduce the heat to a simmer while you prepare the ‘meat’ of the soup.

In a separate pan, add extra virgin olive oil (enough to coat the pan) and bring to a medium/high heat.  Cook your chicken through, seasoning with salt, pepper, and taco seasoning.  Once cooked, remove from pan and set aside.

Drain the grease from the pan, but don’t wipe any excess oil.  Add a splash of oil, and add in all your veggies.  Season with salt and pepper until cooked 3/4 of the way.  You still want a slight crunch to your veggies.

Add your chicken to the large sauce pot with the stock as well as oregano, basil, cilantro and parsley and let simmer for 20 minutes.  While this is simmering, cook the gnocchi according to the package directions.  This takes about 7 minutes.

Next, add in your veggies, stir well, and prepare to plate.  Just before serving, add your gnocchi to the soup, stir gently, and serve!

I garnished with parmesan cheese!

TWO:

As most of you know, my ultimate dream is to work in the food industry.  Be it as a Chef, a writer, a critic, or restaurateur I know my place is in the food industry.  As I was driving home from work today, I had my one on one time with God and asked for His ultimate guidance.   I hate the feeling that although I have a good life, I long for so much more for my family.  I chased that dream recently with my MasterChef audition, but sadly that journey was short lived despite months of preparation.  So as my family hunkered down to watch the season premier MasterChef Junior I couldn’t help but to have to fight with that nagging tug at my heart.

photo credit, shinegroup.tv
photo credit, shinegroup.tv

That tug was quickly replaced with a renewed sense of pride in the children of today’s society. One young Chef presented raw chicken, and instead of competitive hatred, these kids rallied around this little Chef and I found tears pouring down my face.  My youngest sat nestled in the crook of my arms, and she squeezed me a little tighter when she saw what the kids did to comfort the little Chef.  So at the end of the day, I may not be a MasterChef…but I am teaching my kids a love for great food, compassion, and the importance of dreams.  Despite an ache in my soul some days…I know ultimately my dreams are still very real.  Don’t get me wrong.  I am still choosing to be content with the gifts God has given to me.  But I do refuse to settle.  I’ll keep chasing those dreams…just watch me!  🙂

Keep movin’ forward gang.  Always.

❤ Michelle

 

food

Tuesday truths-part 2…Family and Food

Two of my all time favorite things are my family, and food.  If you have been around my blog for a while, you have read of my trials and tribulations, but more so the glue that held my life together this last decade or so…

My family.  No matter how near or far we are physically, we always come back to one another welcoming each other with open arms.  Here are some good shots from my eldest nephew Jack’s Confirmation this past weekend.

Jack receiving his Holy Confirmation
Jack receiving his Holy Confirmation
Jordyn and Jenna
Jordyn and Jenna
Sophia and Julia
Sophia and Julia
James and Sophia
James and Sophia

A couple weeks ago, we were blessed to have our pictures taken by Missy Donovan Photography based out of Geneva, IL.  WOW…I can’t stand my picture getting taken, but the sneak peaks today were amazing.  Here’s one of my favorites, so far…

Yup...these people.  Crazy, goofy, silly, serious, driven, moody, and best of all-TOGETHER
Yup…these people. Crazy, goofy, silly, serious, driven, moody, and best of all-TOGETHER

I’ve been slacking with my cooking since my MasterChef audition, so decided to keep our dinner tonight simple.   In 20 minutes I prepared jasmine rice according to package instructions, adding salt, pepper and thyme.

Too easy!
Too easy!

While the rice was cooking, I sautéed garlic, shallots, and Portobello mushrooms in a wide pan.  I added a teaspoon of pomegranate infused vinegar, and 2 tablespoons of veggie stock and let reduce down.  After ten minutes, I added chopped asparagus and cooked for 5 minutes until still slightly crunchy.  Lastly, I added the shrimp that I marinated in the pomegranate vinegar, olive oil, and salt and pepper.  The shrimp was precooked, so I simply had to heat through.

Serve the shrimp and veggies over the rice, and you’ve got a healthy meal in less than 20 minutes.

Shrimp over jasmine rice
Shrimp over jasmine rice

Do you have any go-to recipes  you use during the week?  What size family do you have?

 

❤ Michelle

dedication, Friday, goals

Five things, Friday…Contentment

Tonight’s word is something I have fought with for a long time.

CONTENTMENT

I often listen to Christian radio on the way to work to help clear my mind. One of the messages this week was to be content with what we have, for God provides what we need.  I’ve battled with this sentiment for a long time.  I’ve always wanted more, wanted a better career, a bigger bank account, better clothes for my kids, trips, etc etc etc…Yet hearing this message last week was like a slap in the face to get my act together and be CONTENT with what I have…Because in all honestly, I have a lot in life.

DEAR GOD

I have a healthy and happy family that battles the same struggles as everyone else.  I have a job in which I can come home from most days, smiling.  I have some pretty great friends, both near and far geographically yet all are close to my heart. I have an amazing husband, and 2 beautiful daughters who may test my patience, but that I love dearly.  And above all, we have our health.  Hearing the news of a dear friend battling stage 3 cancer today brought things full circle.  I need to be content.  End of story.

Our finish line photo...my biggest fan, and now running partner.
Our finish line photo…my biggest fan, and now running partner.

I have a husband who sacrificed months to train with me for his first half marathon, simply to experience this finish line feeling WITH me.

Brian dinner

And today, while he had a day off work, he prepared for me this yummy meal…just because.

Lady bug luck
Lady bug luck

I received this awesome reminder walking out of work today of God’s amazing creatures…I’ve always believed in lady bug luck, and this little dude accompanied me to my Jeep after work today.

And at the end of the day, I recounted my blessings, re-reading text messages and posts from my friends over the last several weeks.  These friends applauded my MasterChef journey as short as it was, and continue to cheer me on to help me find my motivation to run again.

But my biggest fans, are my daughters.  And this little mini still argues that the judges got it all wrong.  She told me, that this week she prayed after having a tough time at school, exclaiming, “Mommy, HE listened!” And a part of me melted…

My Sous Chef
My Sous Chef

With that, I leave you with the thought that moving forward is key…in life, in running, in friendships, and in family.  Hang on tight to those who lift you up…

dedication, Uncategorized

Sunday Summation of sorts and recipes

Last week was a whirl wind of work, work, and more work.

We missed our long run today voluntarily due to a 99 real feel temp after I got home from work.  I hated missing our scheduled 10k, but hey, I am smart too…even at 10 pm it shows a real feel of 88 degrees.  Sorry, can’t do it.  The humidity stabs my head with a thousand pound hammer, and I just can’t do it.  I have had a nagging headache for 4 days, and when I got home from work today at 3 pm I changed into my jammies and napped for 45 minutes. Productive?  Nope…but much needed.

I have made a goal of having Sunday Suppers each week, regardless of schedule, time, or energy.

I have spent so much time studying the basics of cooking, so why not put it into play in my own kitchen?

So tonight, I made goat cheese and fig crostini’s with baked salmon that was topped with a garlic herb butter.  Our side was a simple cucumber, red onion, and tomato salad that was tossed in my favorite vinaigrette.

For the figs:

Thinly slice French bread and spread with goat cheese.  I used a garlic herb blend.  Drizzle with extra virgin olive oil, and season with salt and pepper.  Thinly slice figs, placing on top of the bread, add lightly fried bacon, and bake at 375 for 10 minutes.  Garnish with fresh parsley and serve.

Prep time!
Prep time!
DELISH!
DELISH!

For my salmon, it was an easy prep.  I took one stick of unsalted butter brought to room temperature and added 2 cloves of garlic, minced, the zest of one lemon, a pinch of cayenne pepper, kosher salt and pepper, oregano, and parsley. Mix well, and spread generously on your salmon.  Cook at 375 degrees for 20 minutes or until the salmon flakes lightly with a fork.

YUM!
YUM!

I served the salmon with basmati rice, and a simple salad of red onions (soak sliced in cold water for 10 minutes to reduce the bite), cucumber, and tomato’s.  Dress with a simple lemon/Dijon vinaigrette, and serve!

I sent in my pre-registration for Master Chef on Friday, and am terrified.  I keep getting comments and posts asking “Do you have what it takes?” basically…and now I am second guessing myself, just like I did last year.

Me, and Graham Elliot in 2012.
Me, and Graham Elliot in 2012.

SO I am trying to remain focused, while continuing to study.  Research.  And practice the skill I love so much.

 

We shall see!

How was your week with exercise and eats?