dedication, food, goals, moving forward

Sometimes you have to step back to move forward

I haven’t blogged in over a week.  There.  I said it. My computer is on the fritz, and to be honest I’ve needed to just unplug somewhat lately.  Less…well, is more lately.  Sometimes you just need a little support and feedback, and social media has more than disappointed me lately.  Bah.

But some key bullet points go a little like this…

We’ve remained nearly on point for our half marathon training.  We did our last super longish run on Friday night, despite the crazy rain, thunderstorms, and tornado warnings.  10 miles, done.  We will do our miles this week, and a semi-long run this weekend to keep consistency but embracing the taper.  Our race is less than 2 weeks away!

We went to Chicago last weekend to get some much needed downtime, and enjoyed some amazing food.

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This afternoon my eldest texted me a photo of a note that her “friend” wrote her asking her to homecoming.  My heart was so happy for her, yet sad for me as I see my baby girl growing up into a lady…please. stop. time. But I am thankful she shared this moment, with me…

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Tonight, my youngest started her first ballet class, and despite feeling very rushed after work to get home, feed the kids, get homework squeezed in, and a quick shower, (ack, holy commas) we made it to class by 6 pm.  I snuck quite a few peeks in the window, and was taken aback by my daughter’s grace.  She lacks focus, she has a hard time staying on track…but she would see me watching and all of a sudden her ‘position’ moves became seamless.  I couldn’t help but to smile behind my tears.  My parents were always too busy to put me in activities, and I find myself often in the same situation.  So making time for this one hour per week class is almost selfish for it’s for ME too…seeing her joy brings ME such joy.  It’s worth missing out on a run/workout to see her face light up.

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We watched Master Chef tonight…and although I may have sidelined my audition for yet another year due to financial constraints, I still get that pull to my heart watching the contestants compete each week.  Yet I know I don’t have the confidence or skill quite yet…but it’s coming.

So this year I will regroup.  Refocus.  And cook my heart out by recipe from world renowned cook books that sit on my shelf collecting dust.

I may or may not go to the casting call of Master Chef in Chicago on October 11th.  I need to dig deep.  And believe.  But I also know our family cannot sustain on one income.

Time will tell…

 

Thursday

Three Things, Thursday

Three things, Thursday…
 
Sometimes we try really hard in life but just can’t seem to get one foot ahead of it all.  It all being issues that relate to our careers, our hobbies, fitness, relationships…well, all things LIFE related.  Right?  I used to be a pretty go with the flow type of person, but I have noticed that the last couple of years I have so much LESS patience when it comes to all things fake/lying/negative/mis-treatment of me or my friends/family.  What the heck am I talking about?  Bear with me here…I’ve been up since 2 a.m.  I will keep this sort of vague to protect feelings, but last night and today I found myself very HURT.  It seems, that you are truly often damned if you do/damned if you don’t.  Last night I ‘did’ and it slapped in the face like a hot dagger.  And it made me very sad.  So what did I do?  I called my Mom…because although we only talk once every few weeks or so, talking to your Mom makes everything better, even at the age of 41. 
 
Sometimes I feel this way...
Sometimes I feel this way…
 
Tonight after work, instead of going home and cooking a nice dinner I have to go to…THE DENTIST.  I loath the dentist, in fact, believe I woke up at 2 a.m. due to anxiety of said appointment.  My stomach hurts, I have a headache, and yeah…I get to have my teeth drilled on for almost 2 hours tonight.  Looks like I will be missing my Thursday run, and having that extra glass of wine tonight.  (We got back together, don’t judge-lol).
 
Thankfully my dentist looks NOTHING like this...
Thankfully my dentist looks NOTHING like this…
 
Despite my icky night and lack of sleep I still came to work with a smile.  I work with a pretty crazy group, and they make smiling so much easier every day.  We also ordered stuffed pretzles for lunch from a local place called “Gnarly Knots” along with soup and they were DELISH.  I chose a plain salted pretzle with French onion soup.  What’s not to smile about?
 
photo credit to gnarlyknots.com
photo credit to gnarlyknots.com
 
Questions-
Do you ever feel like you’re hitting you head against the wall in regards to certain aspects of your life?
What medical appointment, if any, do you despise?
What makes you smile?