Deployment thoughts, Uncategorized

30 weeks

209 days ago my husband left for his deployment. 209. That’s a long. Freaking. Time.

We’ve had a lot of heart ache. A lot of growth. A lot of struggle. Many steps forward lead to even more steps taken backward.  But always deciding to move forward regardless. 

But every day we started anew. Sometimes with hard feelings from the argument the night before. Sometimes with such a heavy sadness that the physical ache in my chest started to concern me. But almost always we started with a hug, a kind word or just the presence of each other as we started our day. Together. Me and my girls.


My girls are my tribe. I see that so very clearly now. Looking back on wasted energy and jealousy of those who had these amazing groups of friends and social life makes me a little sad. Why would I not just look right in front of me?  Despite all of our conflict these girls are my constant. My reason for being at least for now. They won’t always need me but they do now. And I’m thankful for that. Because together we keep moving forward.  

30 weeks. Broken toilets, house repairs, teenage drama, work stress, heart breaks, missed holidays and birthdays, missed life events and everything that could go wrong that went wrong. And we’re still movin’ my friends. 

Take that deployment curse. 

And yes. I fixed my power washer all by myself and washed the deck and windows tonight to celebrate. 


Because I can do hard things. Even when I think I can’t. 

Cheers! 

Michelle

Deployment thoughts, Uncategorized

Going on 6 months…

Well gang, we are just about at the half way point of my husband’s deployment.  Sadly, keeping up with a career, a home, 2 kids, a dog, and everything in between has left little time for blogging.  But, I’m still here!!!  If you’ve been reading here lately, I’ve discussed that I am keeping the faith for a career change in the future and that hasn’t changed.  Nothing has transpired as of yet, but the magnetic pull I feel every single day that there IS something more is so strong I find it’s tangible.

I HAVE started running a little again, just a couple 2 milers last week, but it’s something.  I’ve also started cooking again, which makes my heart just happy.  Moving forward I am going to try a new recipe that will challenge my skills-every week-and I’ll highlight what I made for you as well as critique how the dish turned out. I’m a huge collector of cookbooks and cooking magazines, so it’ll be fun to try out some new recipes!  I figure it’s a good challenge for me, and it will keep me accountable here in blog land.  More to follow on that…

With that, I think I’ll just give you a snap shot of my week in pictures which include my beautiful daughters, (S is starting 5th grade and had band camp last week, and J is going to be a JUNIOR…sigh) some of the dishes I cooked, and a couple of my work outs.

 

I am linking up with Holly @https://hohoruns.blogspot.com and Tricia @http://www.misssippipiddlin.com (Will WordPress EVER let us link anymore?) for the weekly wrap.  Please make sure to check them out!  ❤

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How was your week?  What is the longest distance you’ve ever been on your own with your kids (if you have them, dogs/cats count too!)?  Have you been cooking anything interesting lately?

Hope you are all doing well!  Cheers!

Michelle

 

Deployment thoughts, firsts, Uncategorized

What can I say?

Hey y’all. I’m still alive, I promise. But with a teenager with an active social life yet no license quite yet, and trying to juggle work, housework, and keeping my youngest daughter happy I’ve had little time to write. But I wanted to pop in and say hi, and say that I hope everyone is doing well. My running is pretty much nill but I’ve been daily planking and strength training a few times each week. 


My biggest milestone this week, was that I let my oldest take the train to the city today with her group of friends for an afternoon at the beach. Those that know me well, know I’m a spaz when it comes to my kids. So this first step of letting my junior find her way in life was huge for me. 

Other than that were plugging along. Each day is one day closer to my hubby returning home. Today was beautiful weather so I sidelined the housework for a couple hours on my deck. I also cooked an amazing pork loin for dinner.


I can admit while I’m not looking forward to returning to work tomorrow, I can say it’s one day closer. 

How was your weekend? 

Cheers!

Michelle 

Deployment thoughts, Uncategorized

My daughter. My hero. 

Every now and then your kids remind you that you’re doing things right. Tonight mine stepped outside of her comfort zone and blew me away in the fact that despite our ups and downs that she’s many moons ahead of the game. She’s my hero. Here’s her poem titled, “Pride” 

It’s a shortened version due to time but I couldn’t be more proud. 


If you know of anyone dealing with deployment please share. 

Cheers,

Michelle