Deployment thoughts

Oops, I did it again…

I lost my smile…

One of the many reasons I have been struggling with the absence of my husband, is that he makes me smile, daily.  The very presence of him, calms me, motivates me, inspires me, etc.  When I say, he is my person…he really IS. I don’t have a female “Bestie” or “BFF” like most women do.  Sure, I have girl friends but they’ve all got their lives and their friends that they are much closer with so without my husband, I get pretty lonely to say the least.

I was having lunch with my sister on Friday and we were talking about how when my husband talks to his soldiers, the room instantly lights up and you can FEEL how they respond to him.  The inspiration in the air is tangible. He is a TRUE leader.  He is where he is meant to be in life.  And then it hit me.  Like a ton of bricks.  He does all that for our family too.  For the last 5 weeks, you can feel the void left in the house so strongly that sometimes I dread going home after work.

And that sucks.

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO because I am tired of these sad, Debbie downer sad posts, I am going to make a list of things that make me smile.  Because I need to find my smile again.  My kids need me to find it, too.

SnapChat.  I made an account a while back, but didn’t understand the purpose of this app.  I mean, are you supposed to take selfies of yourself over and over and send them to people? I don’t like pictures of myself, so there’s that, too.  So after last week’s YUCK fest I invited my teen to join me for my youngest daughter’s dance class.  We had a little fun with SnapChat and by the end of the 1 1/2 hours we were laughing so hard tears were pouring down our faces.

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Cute, right?
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Like my facial expression? ROFL!!!

My sister.  Last week I wanted to literally hole myself up and just forget the world.  But she won’t let me, and for that I am forever grateful.  She lets me be me, with all my faults and is there for me always. She had my kids spend the weekend with her because 1. I am working all weekend again and that sucks for the kids, and 2. They sure could use a break from reality for a couple days.  #sistering

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Seeing my husband’s face.  I’ve asked him to try and send pictures when he can.  Yesterday while I was working, I got this picture to brighten my day.

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Support. Between my Mom and my sister checking on me several times each week, to one of the Army wives who texts me every day, along with my friend Andrea who also texts me every night (for the last 5 weeks nearly!!!) “NNT” which has always been our thing (Night Night Termite) when we talk, I feel so very blessed.  AND, I came home last Tuesday from work to find my neighbor had mowed my lawn!  How awesome is that?While I may not have a female “BFF” I do have a lot of people who make the time to show they care.

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That’s love right there, LOL!!! ❤

Running!  Of course!  I ran twice last week, and am hoping to get a few miles in tomorrow since it’s my day off!  I have concluded that I don’t like the Brooks Launch 3’s as much as the 2’s.  The toe box is just a little different, and they don’t have that same airy feel.

Doesn't everyone lounge around the house in their old marathon running shoes?
Doesn’t everyone lounge around the house in their old marathon running shoes?

With that, I bid you all a happy weekend!  Tell me something that makes YOU smile?!  Ready, GO!

Cheers! ❤

Michelle

 

 

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39 thoughts on “Oops, I did it again…

  1. A joke for your SMILE:
    Question: Can you learn about love reading books?
    Answer: Basically, yes. But if you read a coockbook are you satisfied? Or you are hungry?
    :))

  2. Oh Michelle…. I have so much to say about this post. Mainly things you got me thinking about….One is that after 3 yrs…of having my running page, I *finally* got my mom to take a peek at it. Aaaaaannnnd…I was told “Hmmmn, looks like you have people that read or like it. On the border of worshippers, but whatever.”
    Yeah..ok mom..that’s not how it really is…I’m just a mom, wife, daughter, sister, friend, who runs, & tries to be/stay healthy/happy/active. 🙄 #exhausting 😫
    But…lol…on my way out the door with my Sophia girl to do a few errands/Boston shopping/sports bra looking.. 🙂
    I’ll be back to jot down my thoughts.
    Great post!!! I love that you take the time to sit & write your thoughts; not so common anymore. XO

    1. Thanks Sara….I appreciate your support. I’ve had my page for gosh, 4 years, and there are several “friends” you’d think would participate, but sadly don’t. We are just trying to help motivate and inspire, but some people think we’re out for followers. I get it, girl. I can’t wait to hear ALL about your trip to Boston!!! I’ll be cheering for you my dear friend. xoxoxoxo

      1. Oh…I forgot to tell you that my girls & I have a blast on snapchat too!! We laugh so hard we are crying 😂💖

  3. Joy surrounds all of us but we have to make the effort to see it. I’m glad you’re focusing on positive. LOVE that pic of your hubby and his guys. How totally great to see them. I don’t get Snap Chat and I’ve been warned repeatedly by my teenager to stay off of it. That probably means I NEED to get on!

    1. I figure if I’m on it WITH my teen I have at least a little less worry. We talk almost daily about how what goes on the internet stays there even if it “disappears” after a few second. And yes, I agree we need to SEE the joy around us. 🙂

  4. Some people truly do light up the room when they enter. I know a few people who suck the energy out of the room (I call them dementors, lol). I’m glad that you get a bit of your sparkle and smile back when you see your girls.
    Just keep holding on. Hugs.

  5. Awwww, I love these post when people share what makes them smile! Gratitude is very healing, isn’t it? I’m with you on not quite understanding Snapchat, but I enjoy seeing the creativity of some accounts. Hurray for Bobbi – she is amazing! And always big hurrays for support, running, and pictures of your husband! As always, big hugs!

  6. I just recently signed up for a snap chat account because my niece and nephews have so much fun with the crazy things you can do with the pictures. Great way to grab a few laughs for sure!!!
    Time with family can be the best!
    I think you’re doing fabulously, and looking to the positive is aways a great sign! Time will help, and eventually you’ll be able to fill life with lots of these fun positive things, and the days will start flying and he’ll be back home soon! In the meantime make sure you know, I appreciate not only your husbands sacrifice but yours and your families for our country!

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