Three things, Thursday…

1.  I haven’t ran in 6 days…after a wonderful weekend in Chicago this past weekend, I caught my death with who knows which strand of flu.  I felt it hit Monday night and it took it’s toll on my body, and my mental strength to say the least.  I have prided myself in my mental strength over the years not only in regards to running, but life in general as I’ve been hit with more than I’d wish on my worst enemy in my lifetime.  But Tuesday night after being sent home from work (NEVER happens) I cried.  I’ve worked so hard this summer training with my husband for his first half marathon, to not run for a WEEK is killer to the mind and soul.  Because if I don’t run, well, he doesn’t either…so I hope this doesn’t hurt HIM in our race next weekend.  We are going to run tomorrow, regardless of how I feel…I don’t want to let him down.

2.  I am in awe of the friends and family who reached out to me this week.  My immediate family, friends both near and far, and even coworkers texted to see if I needed anything.  I feel. so. loved. Additionally, I realized I need to stop chasing people who just don’t give a shit about me even if they are blood.  I’ve unfollowed several this week, and will continue to squelch negative energy from my life.  For I have so many blessings that surround me.  Chasing long lost hopes for relationships that used to exist is a waste of my blood, sweat, and tears.  Just because you were close to someone decades ago, doesn’t mean that relationship will last.  Move on. ‘Nuff said.

3.  Today marked the 13th anniversary of the September 11th bombings.  I never do very well on this day…I remember the call, the terror, and the sense of urgency that was felt while I was stationed at Scott Air Force Base, IL in 2001.  I remember working more hours than I can count that day as our blood donor center was activated.  I remember the buzz of the Humvees that circled the base’s perimeter.  I remember my friends and I huddled in my tiny trailer home, tightly snuggled on my couch, watching the news and people falling from the top of the towers.  I remember tears, pain, and a newfound love for my Air Force family.  We were bonded so closely, but this brought us even closer together.  Our lives, will never be the same, and if asked I could name every single person that sat with me on that grave evening.

This post has no pictures, gifs, or the like.

It’s simply a real post of ME, and all I have held close to me in my 41 years.

And it encompasses my mantra…#keepmovinforward