Deployment thoughts, weekly wrap up

Weekly Wrap up 3/13-First week down, ?? to go!

This marks the first week we’ve gotten through with my husband being gone.  Ok, tomorrow is technically one week, but who’s counting.
To say the week was hard, is an understatement.  With as much as my husband travels, I thought that this truly would be easier. But it’s not.  And more days than not last week I wondered how on earth I would get through this next year without him?
I don’t want to cook, don’t want to work out, don’t want to even watch the shows he and I watch together because honestly it just hurts.  I attempted Sunday supper last night to try and get back to our normal routine, and the emptiness of my husband’s chair made it painful to even eat.  We all feel his absence, and it’s hard to even put into words the raw ache I feel in my chest.
So here a few highlights of my week.
Does drinking wine alone make mean I have an issue?  LOL…The kids and the dog are in the house so it doesn’t count as drinking alone, right?  HA!
I worked out, ONCE last week.  And was sore for 2 days afterwards, LOL.  #outofshape
The girls and I got to Facetime with my hubby and it was GREAT.  We went out to eat to celebrate Saturday night. Ok, I just didn’t want to cook.
My youngest also got her first slide phone.  With the recent nanny issues, and my husband being gone, I just wanted to be able to communicate with her at all times.  Call it paranoia?  Normally I wouldn’t allow a cell phone until middle school, but I think this time my change of mind is warranted.
My hubby sent me a selfie of him and one of his troops.  LOVE!!
Well, my lunch break is up, so I better get back to work!!!  I’m linking up with Holly and Tricia for the Weekly wrap up!  Make sure to check them out!!!
How do you get back in to a routine after a traumatic event? What age did your kids get cell phones?
❤ Michelle

I’ve lost it…

In the past several weeks, going on just over a month actually, I have lost my motivation to run.  Between the MasterChef gig, and ITB issues, running has been on the back burner in my life since my last half marathon in late September. 

So looking at the calendar with my last half marathon for 2014 steadily approaching NEXT weekend, I find myself terrified.

For the first time I am toying with a DNS (did not start) because I just have no motivation/desire to run this race.  I can’t believe I am saying those words but they couldn’t be more true.  My longest long run was last weekend with 9 miles ran at a super slow pace.

Pretty sure I will look a lot like this next Sunday...
Pretty sure I will look a lot like this next Sunday…


I paid for this race.  I committed to run this race.  So…I’ll run this race.  Lord willing at least…

The forecast is terrible, with cold temps and rain/ice on deck.

Someone…help me find my motivation, QUICK.  :-/

Help!  I lost it!
Help! I lost it!

How do you tackle lack of motivation in regards to running/racing?

❤ Michelle