dedication

Fate with a little bit of Fitness added in…

I knocked out my AB challenge tonight, and even made it to 24 seconds with my plank vs. the required 12 seconds.  Weak…I know.  But it’s progress so I’ll take it.  I also walked 2.5 miles today, and my thumb is healing nicely so I hope to hit the trails next week for a couple miles!  I think God was actually doing me a favor this week, as we have sub 0 temps with negative wind chills to add to the winter fun!  Those of you that know me, know I struggle in the winter.  This winter my goal is to keep movin’ despite the frigid temps, and laugh. and then laugh some more…:-) And for those of you bragging about your warm temps in the winter, I am not affected.  Winter is SUPPOSED to be cold and snowy.  It’s not always FUN…but it’s winter, and the beauty of a fresh fallen snow is still priceless.  My face, does still hurt tho…just sayin’…

Pretty much...lol
Pretty much…lol

Today at work, I had my weekly meeting with my boss to discuss any issues, happenings, budget, etc etc.  Often times we get off on a tangent, and today’s tangent coupled with a later conversation that  left me smiling. This lesson didn’t hit me until later in the day when one of my peers came to my office red faced and flustered.  This woman has become like a Mother to me, so I immediately asked if I could help.  She had received the news that her daughter had lost her job, and her heart was heavy trying to carry her daughter’s grief.  And instantly I got choked up, remembering last year at this time, when I had found out my position was being eliminated.  She and I talked extensively, both being women of great faith and I shared my story again of how I was at my wits end last year, as the time ticked by where soon I’d be jobless.  But then I got the call…THE call for an interview for my current job, and everything fell in to place.  Nearly 10 months later and I feel like this amazing group of people have welcomed me in with open arms and have made this my current ‘work’ home. It isn’t always about a hefty pay check or lofty raises that make the job satisfying. Nope…

Truth right here...
Truth right here…

It’s about the people you choose to surround yourself with, each and every day.  In my weekly meeting with my boss earlier today, he verified that he is working on my less than stellar pay, and reminded me that I am appreciated.  And that my friends, is enough for me…

So yeah…the pay check would be nice, but at the end of the day it’s about THIS.  People, moments, relationships, family, and friends.

Keep Movin’ forward!

❤ Michelle

dedication

I’m sorry…I don’t date.

I met a man on August 26th, 2003.  Upon seeing him from across the room my breath was taken away.  I whispered to my friend Kara, “I am going to marry that man.”  But deep down I knew coming off a terrible divorce just 3 years prior that I had no intentions of marrying again…ever.

We talked that night, inside a smoky bar in Alaska.  We danced.  And we laughed…over and over.  We were both stationed in Anchorage Alaska, he serving as a Paratrooper in the Army, me as a pathology technician in the Air Force.  I’ll never forget that night…

After several drinks, laughter, smiles, and we shared an eye contact that couldn’t be broken.  He gave me his number as the night came to a close, and I in turn gave him mine…”I don’t date though, I’m sorry…,” I proclaimed.  I let him know that I was a single Mom, and my loyalty was in raising my daughter on my own.  He smiled, and said he’d call me the next day.

And he called, the very next day.  And every day there after…We talked for hours, yet it seemed not a minute passed by…we emailed short, sweet emails back and forth.  Several days later he came over to my house, and I can honestly say it was love at first sight, all over again.

I tried to hide my emotion.  I tried to tell him I couldn’t love him, or commit to him in a relationship.  But just weeks later I found myself tethered to this man whom I loved and adored.  He welcomed my daughter into his life, and he loved me with more passion than I can even describe.  He. Loved. Me.

But I don’t date…

Six weeks into our relationship we received the news that he was due to deploy.  In October.  I didn’t have to wait…Please, it’s ok…he’d say repeatedly.  But I knew.  I KNEW.  This was the man I was meant to be with for the rest of my life.

And so, on a cold and dreary morning in early October I waved farewell to the man of my dreams as he boarded a plane for Afghanistan.  He didn’t think I would wait for him…Little did he know…

Because I don’t date…

But waited I did.  I endured more sleepless nights than I care to admit.  I lived for phone calls, emails, and watching the news for updates on his unit.  His safety.  We had many close calls.  Many days when I cried more than I felt humanly possible.  But I had my daughter to keep me strong.  I did all I could to hide my sadness from her.  And SHE. was my rock  at the young age of four years old.

Because remember, I don’t date…I was married to my child in all honesty.

He returned home 11 months later, and on August 29th, 2004 this very same man proposed marriage to me.  To which I accepted with tears in my eyes and happiness in my heart.  He. Chose. Me.  I was enough for this amazing man.

And now, as we are just a week before we will celebrate our 10 years of marriage, I find myself reflecting.  Good times, bad times, hard ships, LIFE.  But in the end, laughter and our unending love got us through it all…

Because I don’t date…

Instead, I married the man of my dreams, and I wouldn’t trade a second of our journey.  We’ve been through so very much, lived in several different states, lost loved ones, broken careers, financial hardships, you name it…but at the end of the day, we have THIS.  Thank you dear Brian, for always being my smile.

This...is US.
This…is US.

❤ Michelle