Gravitational pull

As of late, the dreary, cold, and bleak winter days have left me with little motivation to run.  In fact, I only ran once last week and probably because I put it out there for all to see in order to hold myself accountable.  I’m just not feeling it again this winter.  Although our temps are actually quite manageable, leaving for work in the dark, and driving home from work again in the dark DRAINS me.  Ultimately, winter blues suck. That. IS. ALL.   My hubby and I DID sign up for a 5K on Sunday called the Underground Polar Express, where ALL proceeds go to Suicide Prevention/awareness, a cause that touches my heart.  Check it out…

So I’ve really continued to pour myself into my cooking.  (HAHA, see what I did there?) I’ve kept on with my studying recipes, techniques, and experimenting with different dishes.  I have spent the better part of 2014 actually writing out my recipes, and pray I can get my E-book/Cookbook in the works next year.  Why?

Well, because I know I meant to do something OTHER than work in a hospital.  A job I didn’t choose for myself…But it’s been a good job for the last 24 years, and for that I am grateful.  I think I am just at a point in my life where I KNOW I need to be doing something I LOVE.  All the signs are there…pulling at me in a million directions.  I just need to find my “IN” so to speak.  I need someone else, other than my amazing family and friends SEE that I have a gift when it comes to creating food and say, “Hey…I think we could use talent like yours, let us mentor you…”

So yeah…that call hasn’t come yet.  So I keep putting myself out there on social media, posting my recipes, my dreams, my goals…PRAYING someone out there will see the fire I have in my soul.

Sure…I love to run, and it’s a part of my life that I wouldn’t trade.

But I LOVE to cook.  I love to create….to plate…to make my food not only pretty, but amazingly tasty too…

Even more…I love when someone takes a bite of my food, closes their eyes, and sighs in appreciation.  PURE. BLISS.
Last night while watching the “Hundred foot journey” it hit me like a ton of bricks.  The opening scene shows the main character, Hassan, as a young boy in small food market.  There were dozens of people crowded around to buy some sea urchin.  The merchant saw the crowd of screaming potential buyers, but he watched young Hassan pick up a single sea urchin, close his eyes, and deeply breathed in the fresh scent.  He sighed, and took a small bite and smile.  The merchant immediately sold the entire lot of sea urchin to Hassan and his Mother.  Because he “GOT IT.”  He recognized the beauty of the product, with the smells, the sight, and the taste of the food.  And it hit me…THIS is what I do.  I LOVE food. Good food.  Fresh food.  CREATING food.

Later on, as an adult Hassan made the 5 staple sauces of the French for his Chef friend. They can be found here:

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He starts cooking with her, and asks her if she thinks he is a real Chef, not just a cook.  “Yes!!” She replies, in which my husband turned to me telling me he thinks I am real Chef…of course, I nearly cried.  If you haven’t seen this movie, I recommend it highly.

At the end of the day, we have to provide for our families, often times doing jobs we don’t love.  But as I’ve told my husband, “You just watch…ONE day I’ll make my mark on this world, and it’s going to be amazing.

Until then, I’ll keep movin’ forward.

❤ Michelle

12 thoughts on “Gravitational pull”

  1. My friend. I’ve known you for a long time and you will make your mark with cooking BUT never forget that you also make your mark in a thousand other ways also. We want to leave this earth a better place and you my dear have done that. You’ve done for me for almost 14-15 years now. I see great things in your future. You’re destined for food dreams to come true and I’ll be your cheerleader always. I understand the job being simply that, a job but you also mentor, befriend and make differences there also. Jason asled me what my hobbies are and sadly I couldn’t answer that. Being a mom and wife I LOVE but having a passion to add to that? A must in this life. You amaze me and continue to show me that it’s never to late for anything and I’m sure others agree! Thank you. I love you to the moon and back! Xoxo

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  2. You and I are totally riding the same roll tide. I’m so confused at what the heck I”m supposed to be doing. Trying to be a breadwinner in this household when it seems what I’m best at is being a mom, a wife, a caregiver, a nutritionist, a chef, the lunch lady, a house cleaner, an ear for those who need one, etc. My runs are my hour of freedom each day. P90X is the way I get all my frustrations out. My blog and facebook page are fun, but they don’t pay the bills. What next? What do I do?

    You have a talent…and a drive…and motivation to do something you love. Go for it! The worst that can happen is you find out it wasn’t for you. But you’ll always regret never giving it a go.

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  3. You area motivation to many people in how you react to life. I enjoy reading your blogs and seeing how real you are, it is a motivation to keep moving forward. If it is G-ds will then it will happen, keep putting yourself out there and doing what you do best. What about trying out for one of those cooking shows on TV? I will say a prayer for you. 🙂


  4. Your writing is beautiful! Maybe you should consider that too! I have a friend that made a cook book, and just started selling it at $20 to get started and now he has quit his job and lives off his sales. I would love to see your recipes in a book! you CAN do it!

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  5. I wish you saw what we all saw. You are so successful in life, in friends, in talent. I know your cookbook is going to happen very soon. I can’t wait till I can say, “I knew her when….” ❤

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