depression, moving forward

Fear and frustration = FUEL for marathon motivation

In 2013 I ran my second FULL marathon. I swore I’d never run a second full, but got the bug after the first training run.  I PR’d by nearly an hour (58 minutes to be exact, I SHOULD know the seconds, but don’t, lol) and I SWORE I’d never run another full marathon.  I ran a couple half marathon races in 2014, to include my husband’s first half…did you read about it?  You can read about it HERE!

I love this guy...
I love this guy…

So today while on my break I decided to catch up on blog posts.  My friend Kim asked when training for the Grandma’s Marathon started, and after scratching my head and thumbing through my calendar I realized official training starts in TWO weeks.  WHA????  Here. WE. GOOOO!  In two weeks I need to be back up to a steady 6 mile run. Easy peasy, right?  I’m a marathoner for goodness sake…Ack…I haven’t ran more than 13.1 miles in 4 months…but I’m ready.  And a little scared, too…<3


Have you heard of this race?  If not, read here!  For those that don’t know, this is my hometown race, where I grew up watching marathoners crossing the finish line, thus my  dream of being a marathoner began.


And a marathoner I am…to me, this is one of the hugest mental and physical accomplishments of my life.  I have loved, I have lost, and I have ran 26.2 freakin’ miles.  yeah…quote THAT.  🙂

But the last 2 days I fought with some mental demons, past hurts, and irrevocable YUCK that just can’t be forgiven forgotten.  I ALMOST let it get to me….but NOPE.  Sorry y’all, I’ve got a marathon to train for…#movinforward

So I thank you all for your positive feedback in regards to my last post.  I know we all struggle, we are all human, and we all have those negative forces that try to creep in…BUT…I also know, only some of us decide to move forward…and not let that crap in.  (Yes, I was literally shaking my head today)!!!!


At the end of the day, I managed to finish my plank challenge (Day 2) and added an additional 10 seconds, as well as did the push up challenge I am participating in this month.  Tomorrow is mill day, and I hope to get in at least 3 miles.  I’ll be taking all of my fear and frustration and ‘running it out’ tomorrow…who’s with me? Let’s leave the crap behind us, right?


What are your plans for the week?  Do you have any upcoming races?

22 thoughts on “Fear and frustration = FUEL for marathon motivation”

  1. Ohhhh you got this Michelle!! You are going to train like the beautiful, amazing runner that you are!! I can’t wait to follow your journey because HELLO, it’s going to be a fantastic one!! Sit back and enjoy the ride!! XOXO

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  2. Woot woot! Good luck with training for training! 😉 A marathon is an amazing feat. I’m terrified even just thinking of all that it entails to prepare for it…

    Btw, I did my plank challenge today! Success! Also did 30 straight pushups. February is going to be about our goals, right?! Fitness February for us! Yay!


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  3. Good luck! The training for the marathon is something of special because you feel yourself, day after day, always more strong and motivated. I will follow your journey. (o9k = written by my cat walking on the keyboards, perhaps it means “hi”). Unfortunately I cannot run anymore a marathon.
    On sunday a 10km race in Roma.

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  4. No doubts, Michelle! You’ve run them before, have faith you will again! Take each run as it comes and trust your body to go where it needs to. I’ve heard so many great things about Grandma’s. How cool it’s your hometown race!

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  5. Woohoo, Grandma’s!! I’m so glad you are going to run a race that’s so near and dear to your heart. You will do great training for it! Starting in two weeks gives you an 18-week training program right? The first couple of weeks will still be mostly base building anyway and your body will start to adapt to it all pretty soon! Have you decided on a plan yet? I think I’m gonna work on a 16-week training plan so I’m starting my official training the first week in March! Can’t wait to see you at Grandma’s! I want an amazing happy picture at the finish with you 😀

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  6. Hal Higdon’s plans are the best. I wouldn’t worry too much about not having done double-digit miles in awhile… Hal’s plans are designed to start from the beginning and get you to the finish line.

    This week I’m doing Ragnar Florida Keys! I cannot wait to escape this snow to put my toes in the sand!

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  7. You’re going to be great. Just remember it’s only one training run at a time. Don’t worry about the next and the next. We’ll be pretty much doing it together. I’ve just started training for my July marathon.


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