The countdown truly has its ups and downs, now doesn’t it? With each day that passes I realize I am THAT much closer to achieving a HUGE goal of mine…yet the last two days of nagging pain leave me at a loss…
I had SO hoped to finish my training strong. Yet I have to remember back to just a few short weeks ago when I did my TRAINING run of 20 miles, and could barely walk the last mile. I was sick with a sinus infection, and was left feeling light headed, snotty, and well plain worn out afterwards.
Yet I continued, and as I still deal with terribly sinus issues and allergies, I refused to quit.
So I ran the best RACE of my life last weekend, and am now dealing with the aftermath.
Simply said, I WANT to run…more so NEED to…laying on the couch watching television just ISN’T me…yet here I am…I have caught up on shows I haven’t watched in years. I wish I could say this was ‘enjoyable’ but truly it’s just something to do to take up time before I heal.
And now, I write…and am listening to one of my favorite songs by Josh Groban…”You raise me up…”
“When I am down oh, my soul so weary
When troubles come and my heart burdened be
Then I am still and wait here in the silence
Until You come and sit with me
You raise me up so I can stand on mountains
You raise me up to walk on stormy seas
I am strong when I am on Your shoulders
You raise me up to more than I can be.”
And with this, I pray…I pray for not only my strength and healing, but for the health of my family and friends. We all have our own ailments, none of which are easy.
But I have found with a little faith, God will see you through the most trying of times…You simply have to have faith, and believe.
I have to stop doubting, and start believing…in MYSELF. I can’t let these little setbacks, well, set me back. No one said this process would be easy, but for great success, you must put forth great effort and have even more faith.
So for now, I rest…I should be cleaning my house for my eldest daughter’s birthday party Saturday, but well, I seem to have lost my mojo this week. With aching knees and a weary heart I will leave it to get done tomorrow.
I will admit it’s hard seeing everyone on facebook and dailymile getting out there and getting their runs in…I pray I am not “too broken” to finish this…Yet it’s a blast cheering my fellow running friends on as they succeed!
Run on my friends…in life, on the trails, and towards your goals!
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My name is Michelle and I am a retired Air Force Master Sergeant. I have found a passion for running, cooking, writing, photography and all things that move my love for life! I've ran 3 full marathons, with a PR of 4:25, and 17 half marathons with a PR of 2:00:11 (yup-missed sub 2 by 11 seconds, lol). Thanks for joining me on my journey!
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This is such a heartwarming post because I can tell how you really love running. You know it was during the last two years when I couldn't run that I realized how much I loved running. I will pray that you recover soon and kick it at the marathon!
You can and will do it Michelle! You are doing what is best for yourself by listening to your body and healing properly before pushing yourself too far, and causing even greater setbacks. I cheer you on, whether from the couch or the road!! You are doing wonderful and have accomplished so much already. You are on the road to even more triumph! Just wait and see. And I love this song, it is one of my mom's favorites (You Raise Me Up)! Much love sent your way sweetie! xoxo
I know its hard not to doubt yourself, but don't. Trust your training. Hopefully in these next couple weeks during the taper your body rests and recovers. Hope you have a good run this weekend 🙂
Your quote:"I will admit it’s hard seeing everyone on facebook and dailymile getting out there and getting their runs in…I pray I am not “too broken” to finish this…Yet it’s a blast cheering my fellow running friends on as they succeed!" This is exactly how I feel right now. It was hard to rest before the marathon and now I am hurt again and can't run. The only thing you can do is mentally get stronger. I have no doubt YOU will pull yourself together before the marathon and have an awesome experience.
One day at a time – you've put in all the work. Let your body get ready for race day 🙂 No worries – you've got this!
Lady M, you'll be great……..I've said it before, and I'll say it again…….trust in your training…..trust in your base…….and trust in YOURSELF! You've GOT THIS!!!!And in a few short weeks, you'll be able to call yourself a MARATHONER!!! Think about that for a moment….mull it over….let it sink in…….and know that we're all there with you!