moving forward

Weekend musings

I’ve had a bit of a trying week, one could say…after last weekend’s half marathon, my left lower butt cheek was really hurting (?? WTH), and my right knee-well, was being it’s normal cranky self.  So I didn’t run last week.  Not one mile.  And I am 100% ok with that fact.  And THAT.  Well that speaks volumes of how far I have come as a runner, and grounded person.  The old me would be going nuts by now…

Sometimes we become ungrounded though, and we need a bit of a wake up call in life in order to regroup.  I will keep the majority of the details of this wake up call private to protect those involved, but I can speak in regards to what happened to ME.  Because this is my blog and I can vent if I want to…

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Just a few days ago I said some pretty horrible things in response to something that was said to me. #twowrongssodontmakearight  And in doing so, I realized that over the last 9 months or so I have turned in to a pretty selfish person.  I’d forgotten many of the things I had to relearn these last 4 1/2 years after retiring from the military and I got so self absorbed in finding/being ME that I forgot too, to be selfLESS.  Because that has always been a part of who I am as well.

I got a swift kick of reality this week.  But after lots of tears, and countless prayers I was given a second chance.  A second chance to rebuild and rekindle what was once a very solid relationship.  Cue more tears now…

I was also reminded of the many wonderful relationships I have in my life as I struggled with my ‘trying’ week.  So while I may not have ran a single mile this week, I feel like I’ve crossed a new starting line…and with that, I’ll keep movin’ forward.

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Lessons learned: You can never take back words.  Ever.  Use them wisely and carefully.  Be KIND to everyone, but especially those you love.  Never let things fester inside you…COMMUNICATION IS THE KEY.  Festering is bad…very very bad.  And lastly…put forth effort into these crazy things called relationships.  Be it friend, family, spouse or coworker ALL these relationships weave a very intricate web in your life.  Nurture that web!!!!

Me and my friend Andrea, meeting up with Janel (center) to make sure she had her DO EPIC SHIT bracelet because she's running her first 50 miler today!  #friends
Me and my friend Andrea, meeting up with Janel (center) to make sure she had her DO EPIC SHIT bracelet because she’s running her first 50 miler today! #friends

Have you ever had a real life wake up call in regards to a relationship in your life?  How do you deal with not being able to run due to real life crazies?

Hope y’all are having a great weekend!!!

Michelle

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38 thoughts on “Weekend musings

  1. Thank you for sharing your heart Michelle. I hope everything will be okay. I’m usually pretty good at relationships with friends and family, but I suck at marriage. Tried twice, failed twice. I have a really hard time sharing what needs to be said and hold things in until I blow. I’m not sure where it all comes from and definitely don’t have any idea how to change it. Running helps keep me grounded for sure. Take care my friend. 💕

  2. Yup. Sometimes running has to take a back seat. We all do and say things that we shouldn’t, but the important thing is to learn from it. Sounds like you have learned some valuable lessons and the fact that you have been given a second chance shows how strong your relationship with this person is, and how much you mean to each other. Here’s moving forward! 🙂 xx

  3. One of my fav posts indeed.
    We all go through stuff like that, but it’s the bravest person that has the COURAGE to admit things like this.
    Too much respect ! Lovee xox

  4. Running? What’s that…just joking my friend. I’m a believer of any movement is good…more of a walker of woods myself. Never apologize for not doing something you think you should because it’s what you always do. Changing things up is a pleasant way of readjusting the thinking and the prospect of putting right a relationship is great. As my husband says you have to have a happy me to have a happy we, and I’m learning to take responsibility for myself, and not for others emotions and actions. It helps to keep me grounded. Peace and blessings, K

  5. The Christian walk involves much repentance, not suddenly being made perfect. Unlike some, I discovered that slowly. I did not come to Jesus in sorrow for my sins. I came because without Him life has no meaning.

    I have slowly discovered that being a Christian is kind of like running. To build character — to become more Christ-like — I must study Christ and practice letting Christ act through me. Sometimes I must rest. Sometimes I must pray to our Lord and take refreshment in His Word. Sometimes I must run. Sometimes I must carry my cross.

    When we decide to repent, we take up our cross. When we acknowledge Him before others, we take up our cross. When we obey Him, we take up our cross. When we rest in Him, we discover that He is carrying our burdens. Unfortunately, my running injuries still hurt.
    😀

    Hope you are feeling better soon.

  6. I can so relate. Communication is the key and sometimes we all become so wrapped up in ourselves that we don’t see the other people around us. And it takes a wake up call to force us to open our eyes. Great post Michelle. Thank you, also, for the recent follow ☺

  7. It’s so hard to hold back sometimes–there’s been plenty of times that I wanted to unload on certain people in my life, including my husband. Especially my husband.

    This too will pass. And acknowledging what you did is always the best course of action. Been there, done that. You know I have no filter, right?

  8. ugh yup. I tend to have a very fiery and quick temper, and very very easily can think of the worst possible things to say in the moment to hurt the person the most. It’s a GREAT talent. #justkiddingitstheworst

    I have learned that “if you dont have anything nice to say, don’t say anything at all” works VERY very well for me. I don’t know how or why I am able to find the thing about the person to make them feel the worst, but I know I need to keep my mouth shut, go write about it, talk about it with other people, take some time to myself, and THEN have a conversation with the person.

    My boyfriend and I are REALLY good at fighting, and I mean that not sarcastically. We both employ “When ______ happened, I felt _______. In the future, please don’t ______” or some other form of that. I learned it in rehab haha I see, I feel, I hope/expect, I will.

    “I see that when you were done cooking, you left all of the dishes everywhere and made a giant mess. I felt disrespected, and frustrated that everything was left out. I hope in the future you will help me by not making a giant mess/putting the dishes in the sink, and I will be here to either help remind you, or help you in the moment if thats what you need.”

    1. Ugh…at least I am not alone. I swear I’ve been bestowed the same terrible gift, but I have learned to too, keep my mouth shut-usually. This time, I forgot apparently. Here’s to NOT repeating history, right? ❤ Thanks, Mary!

  9. a great post! good to remind yourself that you can’t unsay words… There are plenty of times in my past when I’ve wished I could of! It’s one of those tough lessons you just have to learn in life…

  10. I am one of those people who often don’t think before speaking. I’ve become better at it over the years but I feel like it’s such a fine line and I always mess up at the wrong times. I will hold my tongue in times when I should speak up, but speak up during the times when I should just not. It’s hard. And we are human, and words do hurt. But people who truly love and care about you know that people make mistakes and say things in the heat of the moment and will forgive you – which, it sounds like the person in your life did! It is always such a good reminder not to take the valuable relationships in your life for granted. You are awesome!

  11. This is such a great reminder about the importance of words and the power we can hold with whether we say or don’t say something. I think this is something I definitely needed to hear so thank you with your openness. I’m glad that it seems to have worked out well for you and some good things have come out of the trying week.

  12. Something must be in the air. I just finished a post about “choosing kind” (should be live in the am), How i need to remember to get out of myself and give back to all those I am in relation with. To truly be part of q community . Here’s to more kindness (for others and ourselves)

  13. It can be so hard not to return anger for anger, cruelty for cruelty etc. I’m glad you were able to take steps to fix the situation, and that you’re in a good place. I definitely need to work on this myself.

  14. “Off” weeks can be hard but I always seem to find they’re very rewarding in ways other than mileage. I also find I perform better when I come back, too 🙂

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