moving forward

A day to never forget 9/11/2001

I’ve started to notice as I age, that I don’t remember things as well as I used to remember. It could be a conversation that I had just a short 30 minutes ago, or what I had for lunch yesterday, either way I seem to forget things a lot quicker than I did in my 20’s and 30’s.


But one day I will never forget is 9/11/2001. It was a day my life forever changed, and when I started to see the world for what it really is in reality. I was stationed at Scott AFB, IL, and was on my morning break outside when the news hit. Immediately thereafter, the base went on lockdown and all support teams were activated. I was on the Blood Donor center team, and my job was to help prepare units after they were drawn from the patients. Our team sprang into action, and over 16 hours later we had collected and prepared around 100 units of blood for both the victims and the first responders. That part of the day was a blur, and we honestly didn’t have time to really register what happened that morning and later in to the day.


But when I got home, reality hit. I was a single Mom at the time, and my roommate was watching my daughter who was only 2 years old at the time. Since the base was on lockdown and I lived ON the base, I invited all of my friends to come to my house to stay. We were all exhausted both physically and mentally and seeing the HUMVEES driving through the base only caused a higher level of fear. So we did what that group did best, and we hunkered down on my dilapidated couch, and held each other and cried watching the news. Seeing the bodies fall from the sky is a vision that I will never erase from my memory, along with the close knit family I had when I was in the military. While the day was a tragic day to say the least, I am so glad I had these people to share it with. My brothers and sisters in arms will forever be my family.



Often while I tend to forget the irrelevant things in life, moments like these will never be forgotten.


Deployment thoughts, Military, moving forward, Uncategorized

Has it really been 25 years?!?!?



I had a post drafted last night and ready for publishing today, but whenever I write a post I always set it aside and step away from it before clicking “Publish”.  I’m glad I did that this time, because I really need to quit being so hard on myself when it comes to my military duty.  I’ll explain more here in a few minutes…
Today is one of my favorite days of the year.  July 3rd.  Yup, you read it right, July 3rd, not 4th.  Why?  Because it’s my enlistment anniversary of joining the Air Force.  Today would’ve been 25 years had I stayed in longer than the required 20 years needed to retire.  But I retired after 20 years for several reasons.  Some of which I still struggle with to this day, but most of which I have learned to let go. 

First and foremost, I retired so I could be there for my kids.  When I get upset over the fact I never deployed, or am reminded I would’ve never been able to make Chief, I look at my daughters and know I made the right decision.  Having 2 parents in the military just isn’t the easiest thing to do so I decided stepping down was more important for the girls.  Yes, I still have to work full time, but I am at least here for them while my husband deploys.
Last night my girls and I kicked off the weekend (even though I am working all weekend and the 4th, I am trying to have SOME fun, lol) by going to military appreciation night at our local Kane county Cougars baseball game.  I submitted my hubby’s photo for the jersey, and they even asked for my photo too!  I felt a little silly next to veterans of this caliber, but I submitted mine anyhow!  I will be auctioning in hopes of winning one, too!!! Here are some pics from the game!
So while that first post really went in to all of my regrets I had about not being able to accomplish the goals I set out for myself while in the military, this post will share a few of my favorite pictures from my military days (see above).  It IS my 25 year anniversary after all, and even though I had to work today I’ll still treat myself to a glass of wine or two tonight.  🙂
How are y’all celebrating the 4th?  Hope you all have a safe and happy holiday weekend!
Fun Surverys

The ABC’s of me!

I saw this idea on my friend Jamie’s blog, and thought what a fun prompt to keep writing.  So here goes!

A – Age: 43

B – Breakfast Today: Um, I skipped.  I did however sample a piece of the Crème Brulee cake I brought in to work

C – Current Time: 1630 hrs

D – Drink You Had Last: Water!

E – Exercise of Choice: Running and weights.  My two favs!!

F – Favorite Song: I can’t really say. If I were to pick ONE, it would be the classic “Way you look tonight” by Frank Sinatra.  It’s my wedding song, and the song I sang to both my kids when they were young before they went to sleep.

G – Grossest Memory: My youngest daughter throwing up ALL over me.  And me, in turn, throwing up for hours afterwards.  EWWWWWWWWWWW

H – Hometown: Duluth, Minnesota

The Lift Bridge on Lake Superior, Duluth MN
The Lift Bridge on Lake Superior, Duluth MN
I – In Love With: My hubby, always…
J – Jealous Of: People who get to 1. Do a job that they love or 2. Work from home or 3. Don’t have to work at all!

K – Kids: Two girls, 16 and 9.

Aren't they just pretty?!?  <3  Pic from our summer vacation last year.
Aren’t they just pretty?!?

L – Longest Friendship: Hard to say…I’ve got lots of life long friends thankfully!

M – Middle Name: Rae.  I was supposed to be a boy with the middle name of Robert (and first name Michael) but came out a girl so my parents went with Michelle Rae.

N – Number of Siblings: One amazing sister who always knows when I need her, even when I don’t ask for help.

My sister and I at the finish line of the 2012 Chicago Marathon
My sister and I at the finish line of the 2012 Chicago Marathon

O – Occupation: Lab (Pathology) Supervisor

P – Pet Peeve: Dishonesty, being late, loud chewing


Q – Question You’re Always Asked: Did you fly planes when you were in the Air Force?  NO. We aren’t all that lucky.  I worked in the lab for 20 years (and still do full time), far from exciting as flying a plane.  lol

R – Reason to Smile: My family, my friends, my coworkers…Oh and the biggest reason-I woke up this morning!

S – Snack You Ate Last: Kettle cooked chips.  Don’t judge, it’s cheat week day.

T – Time You Woke Up: 5:50 a.m.

U – Underwear Color: Blue

V – Vacation Destination: Anywhere with a beach! Hope for this to be my home in the next few years!

South Beach, Miami
South Beach, Miami

W – Workout Today: Trying a new workout by Tony Horton and hopefully a quick run before my daughter’s dance class later tonight.

X – X-Rays You’ve Had: Head, chest, the routine ones…

Y – Your Favorite Food: Seafood, I could eat it daily but my kids get tired of it.  “Fish again!?!?!?” LOL

Chilean Sea bass, MasterChef audition dish from season 5 tryouts
Chilean Sea bass, MasterChef audition dish from season 5 tryouts

Z – Zodiac Sign: Capricorn

Play along!

What’s your sign?  What is your middle name?  Last thing you ate? Dream job?

Cheers! ❤