I swear I have lost my mind, and yesterday threw me on a roller coaster of emotions I had thankfully forgotten from our first deployment. Our final goodbyes for the year have been said, and I can honestly say that I am not sure how I survived the 60 minute drive home yesterday. After being enveloped in my husband’s arms as we all sobbed, I just can’t put into words the raw emotion that we felt. My daughters and I simply hung on to one another yesterday, and after tucking my youngest in as she cried herself to sleep, I knew I’d have my hands full this next year.


So my sister challenged me, to keep busy, find a project, and/or journal to help the quiet of the evenings hurt a little less. So that’s the plan. I’ve got several house projects to do on my list, and plan to write a lot more. That’s the joy of my blog, it’s multifaceted, and not just about running. Plus, it’s mine and I can write what I want to, LOL!!!
I still have to remind myself to breathe sometimes. I have to choke back the sobs more times in the day than I can count. But with each day that passes, it’s one day closer to his return. And I am reminded daily of all the blessings in my life. I walked in to work this morning to find this on my desk, a beautiful gesture from my entire staff. #allthelove
I also received several texts, got a dozen hugs, and this awesome gift from my friend Kelly. I wish I had words to describe how grateful I am for all the awesome people in my life.
And as the day came to a close and my kids played outside while I did laundry and cleaned I received a text from my oldest. “Mom, come outside and look at the sunset” She loves the sunrises and sunsets nearly as much as I do.
As we watched the sun set into the horizon, we hugged each other tightly and she whispered, “Love you…” and held her even tighter.
This will be a very tough year. But we love each other so very much, that I believe in the end it will help us get through this even stronger. The crazy emotions of the week have brought on a pretty terrible headache so I put off my workout for another day because I just can’t bear to be down for the count. I’ll get back at it in no time.
Who’s your biggest supporter? Do you have beautiful sunrises and sunsets where you live? What’s your latest workout?
Cheers!! ❤
Michelle
Tonight I said, “Jenna!! Come look at the sunset!!” See, we shared it with you 🙂
Love you so much!
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awh this makes me happy. Thanks sis….Love you so much too…
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Thinking of you and praying for your husband, you, and your daughters during this next year. One day at a time… 💗
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That’s the plan!!! Thank you so much!!!
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Yes, we have gorgeous sunrises and sunsets and I have stood in awe more times than I can count just watching the colors change. That was a stunning one your daughter called you out for. I just know God has his arms around all of you and will comfort you when you need it the most. Writing will be so good and you are excellent at it. I so enjoy reading your blog. Let me know if I can help you in any way. ❤️❤️❤️
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Thanks, Ruth! Your friendship does wonders for me!!!
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God bless you all.
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Thank you!
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You all were on my mind ALL DAY yesterday!
1 day down….sending huge hugs and prayers to you and your family from MD!
I love both sunrises and sunsets. We get pretty ones here ….I have so many pictures on my phone.
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Awh thanks so much for thinking of us!!! I lived in the DC area for 3 years and remember how pretty they were there.
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Glad you all are ok!
Desert sunsets and sunrises are amazing. I’ll have to post ones onetime! I actually just bought the same workout last week. I’ve been “trying it out.” It’s here finally so I’m with ya on that new workout too!
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Thanks! Looking forward to trying it out!
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Sorry, but everything I thought about saying didn’t come out right in words. So… I’m going to leave it with – stay busy!
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Thanks! That’s the plan!
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The flowers are beautiful and such a wonderful gesture! And it’s so sweet that your daughter texted you to come out and enjoy the sunset with them.
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My office smells amazing today!!! hehe! Thanks!
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What a roller coaster of emotions you guys are on right now. I think you have a wonderful support system in place and a great attitude that each day is one day closer to having him home again!
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Thanks, Allison! I am sure trying to remain positive. I know that I’ll have my share of bad days, but I am trying to find good in EVERY day! ❤
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I can only imagine how much your head and your heart hurt going through this. Wishing you all strength and love and comfort! This too shall pass. xo
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Thank you, Marcia. I appreciate your support! 🙂
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Praying for you my friend! Your sister has the right ideas – good luck this year – hugs!!!
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Thanks, Linda!!! I’ll need all the luck I can get, LOL!
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Sending hugs to your family! My mom is my biggest fan! LOL Hugs, Miss E.
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Thank you so much!!!!
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Oh my. This breaks my heart. You and your girls, I wish you the best this year. I know we can’t possibly say anything to make it better but we will be here to support you. Sending you the biggest hug possible! ❤️
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Thanks hon, I really appreciate that!!!! xo
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Thoughts and prayers for you and your family!
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Thank you so much, Jamie!!!
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What a wonderful post. So many are thinking and praying for you lady, xoxo
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Thanks, Tricia. I truly appreciate you checking in on me so often this week. Feelin’ the love! ❤
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You are so strong. I truly admire your strength. ❤
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Gosh you are too sweet, Helly. I truly appreciate your kindness, but trust me, I shed many a tear at night!
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I bet your husband loves that you write a blog because he can read about what’s happening back home, and might read something you forgot to tell him about.
I saw a beautiful sunrise this morning as I finished up my run. I tend to see more sunrises than sunsets because of the way our house is situated and most of our huge oaks are on the west side of our house. Even if I’m not out running, it’s open to our east so I can enjoy the beautiful sunrises.
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I’m pretty sure he doesn’t read it honestly which I don’t even know how that makes me feel. Thank you!
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Much love to you, Michelle!!!
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Thanks lady…xoxoxo
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Glad that you plan to write a lot more to get you through it – love reading your work!
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Thanks so much!!
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I like that you write each day is one day closer to being together again.
Such beautiful flowers!
Obviously, I use my blog for whatever moves me, too, even if it is mostly about running.
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Thanks, Judy…despite the heartache I am TRYING to keep as positive as I can!
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