I’m not sure why this week was harder than many others. Maybe it’s seeing my kids on their first day of school so happy, yet in the back of my mind my heart ached knowing my husband was missing yet another moment. Maybe it was the heartache and stress of being called at work by the school nurse on the second day of school because my mini was sick with strep throat. Maybe it’s having weekend duty this weekend and all the yuck that comes with it.
Or maybe I just miss him. For those that don’t know what it’s like to have your spouse deployed I’d say this poster from 11:11 Awakening Code sums it up perfectly. I pray I continue to have said courage because this week it took everything I had not to literally scream and cry for no apparent reason other than I just don’t want to do this anymore. But I have to, don’t I?
I’m sure praying that this heavy heart gets a little lighter for me this week. I didn’t get to run all week so I’m guessing that was the nail in the coffin so to speak.
Ok this post really isn’t about a lot, but I just needed to get it off my chest. #deploymentsucks
How do you turn a bad mood around? Ever have a bad week for no specific reason?
Cheers!
❤ Michelle
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this is so wonderful post…..detailed, organized…
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Thank you!
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I remember all too well…seems closer we got to the end, the longer it seemed to drag out! Sometimes a good cry and a glass of wine is needed. Praying for you!
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Thanks so much. That means a lot to me.
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I think we all have bad moods for no reason some times and it definitely sounds like you had reason this week. I hope next week is better and that your daughter feels better soon too!
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Thanks so much.
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Be kind to yourself. Thinking good thoughts for you.
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Thanks, Anna. I appreciate that a lot.
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Deployment is rough on families you and your family are in my continued prayers. For me I have finally learned if I feel the need to cry I find a quiet place and. cry. Hugs and prayers.
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Just had a good cry in the shower. Thanks Myra!
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I’m hoping this week is much better! Sending virtual hugs your way!
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Thanks, Debbie! While the loneliness is still there, I am feeling better this week!! xo
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